Oh wow someone actually asked me to answer stuff! i am shocked!

A fact about a person i like: Right now, i am really unsure about my feelings, so honestly i can’t really give an answer to this.
Something i want to say to my ex: It’s okay, i understand. I know you never meant to hurt me. I know you really wanted it to last, but it was just to hard for you. It’s okay, i forgive you. But just so you know, i didn’t just love you, i was in love with you. I would have married you, not anytime soon. But i really pictured my life being with you. But i guess you didn’t see the same, or you changed your mind, it’s okay. 
Something i wish hadn’t changed: Change happens, there is nothing i can or anyone else can do to stop that. but i guess to answer the question i will just simply say, i wish nothing had changed from the night we sat in your garage freezing and holding hands, and you said you would be okay if we froze to death right there holding hands forever. 
Biggest regret: Honestly i guess i wish i could say cutting, or something about harming myself. But doing those things to myself made me realize that doing those things didn’t make anything better, but only distracted my mind, making the problem last longer. I guess my biggest regret is having to go through that to realize what i know now.
A wish: I stopped making these, but i guess, i wish i could believe in wishes again.
Something i want to get off my chest: I tried to kill myself once, maybe twice.
Something i wish i didn’t have to lie about: I don’t lie, other then small ones usually to people that don’t know much about me, and i don’t care about those lies. Other then that i don’t lie